When I first met Zippy he was a mature, chestnut-colored and
very friendly male equine who had come to live with my neighbors. They had created
an ample fenced-in, grassy pasture next to my property, plus a neat horse-shed
where Zippy could both sleep or take safe refuge should the weather turn bad.
Earlier this year Zippy reached the admirable old age (for a
horse) of thirty, and he had begun to show his years. But neither I nor any of my
neighbors were prepared to see him leave us, for him to die. Yet, in recent
weeks he had been beset by several severe conditions. Perhaps we should have
suspected, perhaps we should have known.
A couple of weeks ago, the vets’ diagnosis of cancer seemed
serious. But Zippy had survived earlier infections and illnesses, and somehow
he had come through them okay.
But not this time; the cancer was far too advanced, the vets said.
And Zippy was too old and too infirm, and in pain.
Thus it was that a couple of weeks ago my next door neighbor contacted veterinarians
whose specialty is equine care and medicine. Their role was to inject Zippy
with a serum which would stop his heart and end his life.
That afternoon was sunny; it was a temperate late September day.
A number of neighbors, including several children who had known and loved Zippy
gathered to comfort him and…say good-bye.
I had ventured over earlier in the day to say my farewells; I
did not wish to be there when the vet had to put him down. Several other
neighbors were there, too. I embraced his beautiful head and patted him, then
planted a light kiss on his forehead. I looked into his eyes; he seemed to know
that something was going on—so many human beings attending him. What indeed was
happening, he must have thought.
At that time my neighbors were expecting the vets soon. But it
was much later when they came, and at the very moment I opened my front door to
walk my cocker spaniel Jasper after his supper, I cast a glance towards the
adjoining pasture just in time to see the fatal injection and Zippy fall that
one last time, his heart stilled, to the ground. It is and was a vision which
remains with me as I close my eyes—it was a vision I wished to avoid, but could
not.
My cocker Jasper somehow noticed it, also. You see, Jasper and
Zippy had one of those special animal friendships that is unique in the animal
kingdom. Ever since Zippy came to live with my neighbors, my cockers, both Robert
before Jasper, and Jasper alone since 2018, have befriended him. Each morning
and evening when I would walk Jasper, he would urgently pull my leash in the direction
of Zippy’s corral. Then, he would scoot under the fence as Zippy galloped over
excitedly, and the two would touch noses. It was one of those regular events
which convinces you that God’s Creation is good and that animals do sense
goodness in other creatures.
Seeing Zippy brought down by the injection I walked Jasper
towards my neighbor’s fence. Jasper was whining as we went and pulling hard on
his leash. I think he knew something was amiss.
One of my neighbors had dug a grave for Zippy in his familiar
pasture, where his human companions plan to plant flowers and perhaps erect
some type of memorial. That afternoon I couldn’t stop Jasper’s whining; he desperately
wanted to approach the body of his dead friend, but I would not let him get
that close.
Every morning since then, when I first take Jasper out for his
accustomed jaunt, he heads directly for that pasture. Now, there is a small
mound of freshly-turned dirt over the plot where Zippy is buried, but that doesn’t
seem to deter Jasper. It’s as if he is looking for his friend in the last
place where he saw him. And he accompanies his search usually with a muted
whine: “Where is my friend? What has happened to him?”
I will
admit that witnessing Jasper’s response has only heightened my own sadness.
Zippy was part of my little rural neighborhood and had become a dear friend of
my cocker spaniel. Certainly, horses usually only live between twenty-five and thirty
years. And Zippy had lived a good, long life, appreciated and loved by us humans,
as well as by at least one canine denizen.
Many years
ago, when I was in my teens, my sister begged my parents for a horse. It seemed
back then that many children desired horses as pets. After all we were raised
when equine companions were prominent both in film and on television. I still
remember Trigger (Roy Rogers’ stallion) and Champion (the graceful stead of
Gene Autry), and who can forget “My Friend Flicka” or Silver, the extremely intelligent
solid-white beauty who accompanied the “Lone Ranger” everywhere?
Those
horses were almost human, or so it seemed to us. They knew what we were
thinking and were always there if the human hero needed assistance that only
his trusted mount might offer.
So, my
father acquired a handsome pinto, named Patches. Like my neighbor, Dad built a
small horse shed for him. And I can remember that one thing Patches would do is
let one of our small cocker spaniels ride on his back (well, maybe with a
little help from one of us children!). My sister has photographs, all taken
about sixty years ago, which capture those memories.
As I bade
farewell to Zippy and observed Jasper’s own special reaction, those thoughts of
long-ago came back to me as in a reverie.
Back in
2019 I conducted a round-table discussion with two well-versed academics from England,
and one from the United States (plus myself), on what happens to animals after death.
It was a topic addressed by writer Dr. John Warwick Montgomery thirty years ago
in 1993, and published in the New Oxford
Review as “Fido in Heaven?” Our more recent symposium, titled “Do Dogs Go
to Heaven?,” was later aired in the New
English Review in April 2020. After ample back-and-forth and various
objections addressed, we came to the conclusion that animal souls as they are not human do not enjoy the Beatific Vision promised
to those who die in God’s graces. But as they are His creatures and are called
by Him “good,” and they act according to their created natures (and are incapable
of sin), that neither do their animal souls disappear into nothingness. Rather,
even not experiencing the blindingly joyous vision of Beatitude, yet their
animal souls are somehow present on some level glorifying the God who created
them and surrounding the human companions for whom they provided such delight
and comfort when on earth.
I like to
think that is Zippy’s happy fate, just as it is for the several cocker spaniels
who have allowed me to keep them company during their short lives and who have provided
immeasurable and invaluable comfort, devotion and love to me over the years. They
are and were, as I call them, God’s barking angels, just as Zippy was that elegant
and handsome equine companion for my neighbors.
We shall, I believe, feel their presence once again.
(The photograph above is of Zippy in happier days)
Beautifully written. Having owned many horses over the years it never gets easy when it is there time to go. Reading this brought tears to my eyes.
ReplyDeleteThanks Boyd
A heart warming reminder of times gone by. I too had a quarter horse in my pre teens until I got my license to drive. Many fond memories are still held close to my heart on our time spent rambling about.
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